Vulnerability Can Heal Your Inner Child

If honesty is the best policy, why do so many of us who experienced childhood trauma (especially chronic childhood trauma) quake at the very thought of speaking our true feelings, needs and desires out loud? Within the tight confines of an exclusive romantic relationship the thought of clearly stating our personal concerns, needs and desires to our beloved seems fraught with danger. To voluntarily be vulnerable once more, is asking us to relive the most debilitating part of our childhood. It requires massive trust in ourself and in our partner. We tend to anticipate a roar of dissent, a sneer of disdain, a cold turning away indicating, once again, that our concerns, needs and desires are of no consequence. We project onto our partner what we regularly received from our family of origin as children. Often, unwittingly, we set up our unsuspecting partner to behave in the same manner of whichever parent we had the most dissidence with. This gives us the opportunity to try and work out what we never could with our most troublesome parent.

Is it any wonder that our attempts to communicate with our partner often crumble into uber-emotional blamefests? We blindside them then are crushed when they don’t magically make it all better for us. Afterward we survey the damage we’ve done and one of two things usually occur, 1) We have an overwhelming urge to run out of the house like our hair’s on fire, or 2) We retreat to our inner fortress with our guts in a wrenching twist, more baffled than we were before the incident we incited occurred. Neither of which result in us feeling loved, cherished and understood. Once again, we vow never to reveal our true feelings.

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Here’s a wee glimpse of what I’ve learned about honesty in a romantic relationship throughout my recovery:

  1. Honestly expressing your feelings, needs and desires is an indication that you love and honor yourself.
  2. Honestly expressing your feelings, needs and desires is an indication that you trust in the love and goodness of your partner.
  3. Honestly expressing your feelings, needs and desires will rather quickly indicate if the partner you are with is vested in your relationship . . . or not. Which, consequently, requires you to be brutally honest with yourself about moving on to a more fulfilling relationship or to more time by yourself to learn, grow and pursue the desires of your heart.
  4. Honestly expressing your feelings, needs and desires will often still be scary. But once you realize the cost of suppressing them, not expressing them is even scarier.
  5. I have learned if you focus on saying ‘what I need is . . .’  vs. what I’m not getting is -blah-blah-blah’ it is much easier for your partner to listen to you.
  6. Backpeddling (taking back what you originally said you felt or needed, or making it less significant in some way) is a sign that you are either not clear about what you want or you are not honoring yourself and, hence, not honoring and protecting your inner child. It is a message that your needs are not really all that important overall. Which is not being honest!
  7. Honestly is not a license to be rude, unkind or mean.
  8. Honesty is best prefaced with appreciation, expressed gently and politely and concluded with love and a sincere compliment. It’s the ‘spoonful of sugar’ technique!

Honesty is more than not lying. It is truth telling, truth speaking, truth living, and truth loving.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           James E. Faust

Wishing you wholeness, serenity, love and fun!

Josephine Faulk aka Joie ;  )~

Copyright ©2014 Josephine Faulk, MPH (Excerpt from WORTHY: A Personal Guide For Healing Your Childhood Trauma by Josephine Faulk,MPH. 

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